the lyme blues

You can only go so many nights without sleep before your body gives out...and mine officially has. It definitely doesn't help that I have a disease...a disease that requires extra sleep. And guess what I'm not getting?!! Sleep. It feels like a sick joke. I can't escape at night to my wing of the house because we live in a 1,200 square foot house. Plus, our sweet girl loses it when doors are closed or we arent available 24/7...so Chris and I really can't take turns. We are all in. I now know when I'm about to hit the wall. Usually my hands start hurting...and then my arms...and Lord help me, when it hits my legs and feet, I lose it. Update: I've lost it. Eliana has been sick all week and hasn't gone to school plus she's been extra clingy. And, when I'm in this much pain and her panic attacks/rages begin, I want to drive directly to Florida and sit on a beach by myself for approximately a month. Anyone have a beach house I can borrow?! Ugh...this would be hard without Lyme disease. Thanks for praying. I haven't stopped my midnight prayers for y'all!