multitasking at midnight

A week or so ago, I asked God to give me some kind of purpose in this hard season. I am really stuck in our house about 98% of the time. I felt clearly that I was to use the hours from midnight (really we start putting her down at 9ish) until E falls asleep to pray for anyone and everyone. I have a lot of time on my hands. So, I sent out a quick facebook message letting people know that I want to pray for them at midnight, not sure if anyone would respond. Well, they did and I feel very honored that they have trusted me with their requests.

I spent a lot of last night compiling the list and trying to come up with some kind of order to this new mission. Overwhelmed just doesn't cut it...my heart is all in. I am praying...and not just at midnight. Specific people will come to mind all throughout the day. I love getting to see their faces and pictures on facebook because a lot of people I don't even know too well. So, let me just be really honest. Last night felt like an EPIC failure. Eliana had one of her biggest meltdowns and rages that we have seen yet. It was hours of her literally out of her mind. So, the prayer list was prayed for in between me getting hit or punched...or me holding and rocking her begging God for answers about her pain and anxiety. It was some of the craziest multitasking. This road hasn't been easy, but I was never promised that it would be. Know that I am hurting with you and praying for healing for all of us. Thank you for letting me in on your stories. I am so thankful for each of you.

Sidenote: I will NEVER talk about any prayer request or name on this blog unless you ask me to share your story with others.